Sunday, June 10, 2012

yes for marriage!

I had a different blog post in the works for today, but I'm going to save it for tomorrow.  Why?  Because I was a part of history today and obviously, when you're a part of history, it requires blogging about!

Quick disclaimer to my friends/followers/readers who aren't LDS: you're probably  not going to understand much of what this post is about, but that's okay!  If you have questions or want to know more, let me know and we can chat :)

How was I a part of history you ask?  Because of this:

Elder Ellis and Elder Callister from the Seventy came to organize 5 YSA (Young Single Adult) Stakes here in the valley.  Previously, all the different YSA wards were a part of family stakes, but now we are our own stakes.  Pretty cool!  They organized single stakes up in Utah a couple years ago and got the go ahead to organize them down here just a few months ago.  Nothing is changing with my ward in regards to leadership or meeting place, which is nice.

We had a meeting last night where all the new names and boundaries were given, then got to hear from Elder Ellis, Elder Callister, Elder LaSuer (who is one of the local Area Seventies) and a few others.  They each gave some great thoughts and spoke a lot about personal revelation and following the word of the Lord, especially with all these changes.  There were also several talks about making sure we are choosing to be on the Lord's side and giving our whole hearts to him.    This morning we had Stake Conference with our new stake (I'm in the Mesa YSA East Stake now) and got to sustain our new Stake Presidency: President Sandstrom, President Rogers, and President Maybree.

Again, several remarks were made about personal revelation: how to seek it, and making sure we follow it, and more thoughts on avoiding sin and what we can do to stay strong against temptation.  One quote I really liked was, "Sin will yield to the power of the scriptures."  I definitely need to get back into the habit of reading every day and praying morning and night.  Sister Sandstrom, when she was bearing her testimony, related several different experiences she and President Sandstrom have had over the years in the different YSA wards they have been involved in.  One story was about how a guy and a girl had met and ended up getting married from an activity revolving around the campaign ad a few years ago for Prop 102 (to protect marriage here in AZ).  At the time the slogan was "Yes for marriage!"  When President Ellis got up to speak he said he liked that slogan and that that should be our stake theme.

It's always fun to see big changes like this take place and be a part of history.  Mom said last night that this was like when the change was made to go to the three hour block schedule that we follow now.  In a few years, no one's really going to remember it being any other way.


Saturday, June 9, 2012

i feel like I should blog but...

...I really have nothing to say.

However, because blogging is the 21st centuries version of writing in my journal, I feel pressure to at least check in every couple days and let my future posterity know how I'm doing so they can hopefully gain a greater appreciation for me and all the struggles I went through in my life and all that jazz.

So...

Since my post on preparing for my death and making sure my estate is taken care of, I haven't done anything to change my current situation.  I find I'm not really ready to confront the possibility of my ultimate demise.  I feel that writing a will and taking out additional life insurance is just going to be tempting fate.  Once I do those things then death can swoop in at any time and take me, but if I put them off then I'll never die because I'll never be ready.  There.  I just decided.  I'm not going to do it and I'm going to live forever!

(As if THAT'S not tempting fate)

(Knocks on wood)

I don't really want to die OR live forever.  And I promise I will take care of all that depressing adult stuff soon.

What I have done since my last post is decide that I'm only going to weigh myself once a week instead of every day.  Every day weighing just leads to emotional breakdowns and temper tantrums and really isn't good for my overall well-being.  I went out last night with Katy for dinner and a movie (Chili's chips and salsa and other appetizers and then Snow White and the Huntsman) and ate way too many food points, I'm sure, but I don't really care.  Yes, I know loosing weight is important and I am going to stay with Weight Watchers for as long as I can afford it, but I'm not going to prevent myself from living and having fun occasionally.  I don't splurge on a regular basis, so once in a while is okay.

I've also been contemplating getting a dog.

Why?  Because, as stated in my previous post, I'm lonely.  And since Mr. Right doesn't seem to be making any appearances (remember how he died of dysentery on the Oregon Trail?) I figure a pooch might be a good replacement.  Plus, it would be an added security system.  I really don't mind living by myself...during the day.  At night, I tell myself I'm okay being in the house all alone, but the truth is, I'm not.  I'm definitely doing better than I used to do, but every since the break-in back in November I've been a lot more skittish about being alone at night.  Why is it that all the regular house noises seem 10x more loud once it's dark outside?

Here are my concerns about getting a dog:

*They're kind of stinky

*They leave poop in the back yard (and sometimes the house)

*The shed

*They cost money to feed and take to the vet

*What would I do with him/her whenever I go on vacation and can't take him/her?

*He/she would be left alone all day while I'm at work and I would feel bad

*Although I NEVER see her, I'm not sure if Invisible Roomie would be okay with a dog in the house

*Some family members have pet allergies so they wouldn't be able to come over to the house anymore


Here's why I think it would be a good idea to get a dog:

*So I'm not alone in the house at night (or during the day when I'm home)

*So the house is more protected when I'm away

*So I have someone who loves me and is excited when I come home

*So I have an excuse to exercise


I've spent some time the last couple days looking at pictures of dogs that are available at the Humane Society and some other rescue places around town.  There are several who have caught my eye and who I would consider bringing home.  I'm just not sure if I'm really ready for the responsibility.  Plus, then I remember how much I cried when our ferret died a couple years ago and I know that if I DO get a dog and he/she dies (which they always do) it's going to be 10x worse.  I think that's probably my biggest issue when it comes to relationships.  Loving hurts.  And I'm scared to do it.

Bottom line: I can't do anything (read: I don't want to do anything) until after my summer trips so I'm not bringing someone home and then immediately leaving them for a couple weeks, which gives me a couple months to make a decision.  Should I, or shouldn't I?  I don't know.  I guess we'll have to wait and see...

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

death & dieting

Yesterday I did something I've never done before.  I met face to face with my insurance agent, Scott.  Now.  I've had insurance (car, life, renter's and now homeowner's) since I bought my first car when I was 20.  But I've never actually met face to face with an agent since I first signed up for car insurance with State Farm in the little building in American Fork, UT behind the pet store and Seagull Book that my mom took me too in 2002.  Wow.  Was it really 10 years ago??

When I called my agent last week regarding my cracked windshield he wanted to set up an appointment to go over my policies.  I set up the appointment, figuring it was going to be an hour of him trying to talk me into buying different or additional coverage, and steeled myself to be strong and "just say no!"  But, it was actually a very good and enlightening meeting.  And Scott is a really nice guy.

We went over my policies, found a few inconsistencies that need to be corrected, and talked about what kind of coverage I needed to take care of my estate (P.S. who knew I even HAD an "estate"??) when/if I die.  Not a very pleasant topic (especially since I'm dreading turning 30 and being officially old enough as it is already) but it was interesting.  Basically we figured out that I need to carry a life insurance policy, or policies, of about $158,000.  That would settle all the debts I currently have including my house, car, credit cards, student loan, and take care of burial and funeral expenses and not leave anything for Mom and Dad (since they are my beneficiaries at the moment) with any outstanding amounts.  Kind of morbid, I know, but it's good to know this kind of stuff I'm figuring out.  Right now I have $150,000 between a personal life insurance policy I took out 10 years ago, and a policy through work.  We also talked briefly about getting a will set up.  But I'm not sure I'm ready to tackle that yet.

Sigh.  I guess since I AM turning 30 next month and there really is no way to avoid it, it's time to get serious about more of this "adult" stuff I've been putting off and avoiding.  I need to be more involved in my retirement and savings plans and make sure I am covered in case anything does happen to me so I'm not leaving a mess behind me.

I just wish I didn't have to do it all alone.  Being single is lonely and right now I'm feeling particularly so.

On top of feeling lonely, I'm also starting to get a little discouraged with this whole losing weight thing.  I haven't lost any weight the last week and a half.  I fact, I've gained a few pounds back.  I know that weight fluctuations are caused by lots of different things and it's normal to go up and down, but I've been trying really hard to stick right to the plan and only eat the allotted food points each day.  Yet every time I get on the scale and see that it either hasn't changed, or it's gone up a little bit I feel like Bob Wiley from "What About Bob" and I have a little tantrum in the bathroom.

"I'm baby-steppin', I'm doin' the work, I'm not a slacker!  Check it out I'm in really bad shape!  Gimme, gimme gimme--I need, I need, I need, gimme, gimme gimme..."


But my scale just sits there.  Looking at me.  With judgey eyes.


Maybe it's my scale that should think about writing a will and taking out a life insurance policy.  It's existence here on Earth may soon prove to be a LOT shorter than mine...

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

frozen yogurt

My new guilty obsession?  Frozen Yogurt or, for those of you who are more hip than I am: Fro Yo.

There is a new create-your-own frozen yogurt place just up the street from my house and on the way home from work.  I stopped in today to kill the craving I've had the last week or so.  Chocolate non-fat frozen yogurt with strawberries.  Yum!  And bonus: it was only 5 points on Weight Watchers.  I will definitely be taking advantage of this delightful little place this summer!!



Sunday, May 27, 2012

talk on patriotism


            In honor of Memorial Day tomorrow, Brother Hallock asked me a few weeks ago to speak today on patriotism.  I’ve spent the past month pondering this topic and asking my family what being patriotic means to them.  Some of the words and phrases I’ve gotten are: pride, respect and honor, love, loyalty, sacrifice, remembering, freedom, voting, setting a good example, being unselfish, red, white and blue, flying the flag, the national anthem, BBQ’s and fireworks, George Washington, and putting country before self. 
            That’s kind of a daunting list of topics and very broad!
So, after gathering that list, my next task was to narrow it down to what it was I specifically wanted to talk about and focus on today which was surprisingly difficult to do!  But hopefully what I’ve put together will come together cohesively and make sense.  When I spoke last summer, I told a story about a mesquite tree that was in my parents’ front yard.  Hopefully those of you who were here will remember that tree and the parallel I drew between it and the importance of having a strong testimony.  Today I want to follow a similar vein and talk about seeds. 
Now, what do seeds and being patriotic have in common? 
Throughout history God has planted seeds.  Seeds that led Christopher Columbus, and other explorers like him, to set out on an adventures that led to the official discovery of this continent and brought knowledge of its existence to the rest of the world.  Seeds that led hundreds to leave their homelands in the mid-17th century to travel to this country in search of religious freedom.  Seeds that led a fledgling group of colonists to rebel against a monarchy in order to fight for what they believed in.  Seeds that led John Adams, Benjamin Franklin, Alexander Hamilton, Thomas Jefferson, James Madison, George Washington, and others, to create the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution: the foundations of this country and the basis of everything we have spent the last 236 years defending. 
In Sheri Dew’s book, No One Can Take Your Place, she has an entire chapter that focuses on the seeds that were planted by these Founding Fathers of our country.  She says, “Our Founding Fathers planted seeds of liberty and freedom that have produced centuries of harvest to be reaped by those of us fortunate enough to inherit the privileges and protections guaranteed by the Constitution.  The wealth of the United States does not lie in its stock market or entrepreneurial reservoir. America’s wealth lies in its people—in us, and in the seeds we are sowing.”
            What seeds are we sowing? 
            As I was preparing this talk, the 12th Article of Faith came repeatedly to mind.  “We believe in being subject to kings, presidents, rulers, and magistrates, in obeying, honoring, and sustaining the law.”  I wanted to delve a little further into this statement of belief that we have and figure out why it was so important that it be listed as one of the key principles of the gospel.  So I pulled out my copy of James E Talmadge’s “Articles of Faith,”  In it, he said, “Governments are essential to human existence; they are recognized, given indeed, of the Lord; and His people are in duty bound to sustain them.” 
In Doctrine and Covenants 98: 4-6 the Lord says, “And now, verily I say unto you concerning the laws of the land, it is my will that my people should observe to do all things whatsoever I command them.  And that law of the land which is constitutional, supporting that principle of freedom in maintaining rights and privileges, belongs to all mankind, and is justifiable before me.  Therefore, I, the Lord, justify you, and your brethren of my church, in befriending that law which is the constitutional law of the land.” 
Doctrine and Covenants 134:1 also states, “We believe that governments were instituted of God for the benefit of man; and that he holds men accountable for their acts in relation to them, both in making the laws and administering them, for the good and safety of society.” 
In short, governments are set up for our benefit and it is our duty, as a disciple and follower of Christ, to support whatever government we find ourselves under.  But what happens if we find we don’t agree with how things are being handled?  Elder Talmadge continues, “Our Savior’s work on earth was marked throughout by His acknowledgement of the existing powers of the land.”  I’m sure we are all familiar with the oft-quoted verse in Matthew, “Render therefore unto Caesar he things which are Caesars; and unto God the things that are God’s” (22:21).  “Throughout the tragic circumstances of His trial and condemnation, Christ maintained a submissive demeanor even toward the chief priests and council who were plotting His death.  These officers, however unworthy of their priestly power, were nevertheless in authority.”
            Since we are to always look to the Savior as our example in everything we do in life, I can think of no better illustration of what the 12th Article of Faith means and how we should apply it in our own lives than that.  There may be those who are in power who may prove to be unworthy of their status, but they are, as Talmadge said, “nevertheless in authority” and are due the respect that comes with the offices they hold and we are subject to them and commanded to sustain the laws of the land.  However, it is also up to us to make sure we are planting seeds of personal righteousness in order to further reap the harvest that was planted by our Founding Fathers.  “James Madison, who is regarded as the father of the Constitution, put it this way: ‘We have staked the whole future of American civilization not upon the power of government—far from it.  We have staked the future…upon the capacity of each…of us to govern ourselves according to the Ten Commandments of God.” 
Elder Oakes gave an address entitled “The Divinely Inspired Constitution” in February 1992.  In it he said, “It is part of our civic duty to be moral in our conduct toward all people.  There is no place in responsible citizenship for dishonesty or deceit or for willful law breaking of any kind.  We believe with the author of Proverbs that ‘righteousness exalteth a nation: but sin is a reproach of any people’ (Proverbs 14:34).  The personal righteousness of citizens will strengthen a nation more than the force of its arms.”  Elder Oakes continues, “The single word that best describes a fulfillment of the duties of civic virtue is patriotism.  Citizens should be patriotic.  My favorite prescription for patriotism is that of Adlai Stevenson: ‘What do we mean by patriotism in the context of our times?...A patriotism that puts country ahead of self; a patriotism which is not short, frenzied outbursts of emotion, but the tranquil and steady dedication of a lifetime.”
            I really like that phrase “tranquil and steady dedication.”  How do we achieve this?  Elder Oakes said, “this steady, tranquil dedication…means living the gospel by becoming a 100% Latter-day Saint 100% of the time.”  Sheri Dew said, “Each of us has a role to play in preserving this nation.  The place to reform our country is not Washington, D.C…the place to begin is with ourselves.  If we want to preserve freedom as we know it, we must live righteously.”  She continues on with three seeds that we should focus on, in our individual lives, that will help us, as she says, “reap a bountiful national harvest.”  These seeds are: integrity, selflessness, and devotion to God.
            Seed #1: Integrity.  What is integrity?  My sister, Faith, asked me a couple weeks ago what integrity meant to me as a part of a personal progress experience she was working on for Young Women’s.  My response was: integrity is more than just honesty.  It’s being true to your morals and convictions, no matter the circumstances, consequences, and no matter who is (or isn’t watching).  It’s being someone others can depend on and trust to always do the right thing. The Savior is the perfect example of integrity; He did everything He promised the Father He would do.  The scriptures, and history, are full of numerous examples of integrity: Joseph in Egypt, Esther, Job, Daniel, Paul, Joseph Smith, George Washington, John Adams, and Abraham Lincoln to name a few.  In the Doctrine and Covenants the Lord gives the best compliment I can think of to Hyrum Smith when He said, “Verily I say unto you, blessed is my servant Hyrum Smith for I, the Lord, love him because of the integrity of his heart, and because he loveth that which is right before me.” (124:15). 
President James E. Faust, in 1982 said, “Integrity is the value we set on ourselves.  It is a fulfillment of the duty we owe ourselves.  An honorable man or woman will personally commit to live up to certain self-imposed expectations.  They need no outside check or control.  They are honorable in their inner core…Integrity is the light that shines from a disciplined conscience.  It is the strength of duty within us.”  In her book, Sheri Dew writes, “Our Founding Fathers clearly understood the crucial importance of integrity.  When they signed the Declaration of Independence, they pledged not only their lives and fortunes but their sacred honor.  They didn’t just moralize about integrity.  They modeled it.”   Are we planting this seed of integrity in our lives?  Are we following the examples set by those who came before us and leaving an example for those who come after us to follow?  Just remember: “If you tell the truth, you don’t have to remember anything.”
            Seed #2: Selflessness.  “Selfless service has been core to our nation from the beginning” and it is an important aspect to the gospel as well, as we all know.  Sheri Dew continues, “Our history is filled with sterling examples of selfless service.  John Adams hinted at the sacrifice he and other Founding Fathers made in a letter to his posterity: ‘You will never know how much it cost [our] generation to preserve your freedom.  I hope you will make good use it!  If you do not, I shall repent in Heaven that I ever took half the pains to preserve it!’”  This quote made me think of the third verse of “America the Beautiful” that says, “Oh beautiful for heroes proved in liberating strife, who more than self their country loved, and mercy more than life.”  Do we think about, and put the welfare of others before our own? 
            Opportunities for service to our country and in our communities are countless and varied. “President Bush said in his 2003 State of the Union address, ‘Sometimes it takes just one person in someone’s life.  I urge you to be that person.’  His words mirror Albert Schweitzer’s declaration: ‘One thing I know: the only ones among you who will be really happy are those who will have sought and found how to serve.”  Sounds familiar doesn’t it?  Makes me think of Matthew 10:39, “He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.”  It is through service to others that we find happiness.
There is a poem that I found several years ago, and which I love, about service.  It’s called, “It’s Up To You!”
One song can spark a moment,
One flower can wake the dream.
One tree can start a forest,
One bird can herald spring.

One smile begins a friendships,
One handclasp lifts a soul.
One star can guide a ship at sea,
One word can frame the goal.

One vote can change a nation,
One sunbeam lights a room.
One candle wipes out darkness,
One laugh will conquer gloom.

One step must start each journey,
One word must start each prayer.
One hope will raise our spirits,
One touch can show you care.

One voice can speak with wisdom,
One heart can know what’s true.
One life can make the difference,
You see, ITI’S UP TO YOU!
            Seed #3: Devotion to God.  Quoting Sheri Dew again she says, “The Constitution—which is the most significant legislative document ever adopted by a people—exceeded the genius of the delegates.  Surely it was the work of principled men inspired by God—men who not only believed in God but believed that God was guiding them…Those of us who know we are living in a land created by God for the benefit of a moral people cannot afford to be inactive spectators if we wish to preserve the destiny of this nation.  We repay the goodness in our own lives by investing in the lives of others.  Every man and woman, boy and girl, can make a difference.  Every young adult, every family, every homemaker and CEO and professor, those who are wealthy and those who are not, black and white and brown, old and young and in between those who were born here and those who have been adopted into the American family—every one of us can make a difference by the seeds we sow and the trail we leave behind us.  Those who live with integrity, who give of themselves, and who never forget that God is the Presiding Authority in the universe are destined to do good and be good.  And that is what will continue to make America great.”
            Again it comes back to that phrase that I love: “steady, tranquil dedication.”  Ether chapter two gives us a very straightforward promise from the Lord regarding this land.  In verses 8-10 the Lord tells the brother of Jared three times that “this land is a land of promise; and whatsoever nation shall possess it shall serve God, or they shall be swept off when the fullness of his wrath shall come upon them.”  I don’t know about you, but I don’t really like the thought of being “swept off” by the Lord’s wrath.   Seems pretty cut and dry to me.  We’ve been given a land that has been blessed by the hand of the Lord, and a government that was set up by divine inspiration, but we need to ensure we are serving the Lord by following all of his commandments with our whole hearts, in order to avoid the blessings being taken away.
            At the end of her chapter, Sheri Dew says, “We are reaping benefits of the seeds of peace and freedom sown by our Founding Fathers and others who forged a stunning trail of integrity, selflessness, and devotion to God.  What trail are we leaving behind us?...America is a land of promise, a land choice above all others, founded by noble men inspired of God.  Further, America was not only founded by God but has been preserved by Him.  Thus, we owe our privileges and prosperity, unequaled anywhere in the world, to Him.  But with those privileges come great responsibilities—especially our responsibility to serve God and to live as He would have us live.  In short, this land’s future is dependent upon the righteousness of its people.  That means that we very literally hold the destiny of the United States of America in our hands.”
            After preparing this talk I realized there is so much more to being patriotic than flying the flag, watching fireworks, and BBQing with friends and family.  It is living a life that exemplifies everything the Savior taught and being “a 100% Latter-day Saint 100% of the time.”  As James Bryce said, “Patriotism consists not in waving the flag, but in striving that our country shall be righteous as well as strong.”  Patriotism is making sure we are planting seeds of integrity, selfless service, and devotion to God that will ensure that this country will continue to be the land of promise that it has always been.  It is up to us to make sure those who come after us are able to enjoy the same privileges and freedoms that we do.  I am so grateful for all the men and women throughout history who have sacrificed, defied the odds, fought for, challenged tradition, remained true to their morals and convictions, and made this country what it is today.  “Of him unto whom much is given, much is required” (D&C 82:3). 
What seeds are we sowing?

Saturday, May 26, 2012

here's how my week went down

Monday: Got to work to discover the systems were completely down and would be for the whole day.


Was then told that we could submit sick time if we had it and take the day off.


The pool guy that I called to come check out my dead pool pump showed up that afternoon and told me how much it was going to be to replace the motor (see previous post).



Tuesday: The systems were spotty all day and went down for an hour two different times.


Then the windshield repair guy that I called (during one of the system down times) came over to the house after work to replace my windshield and told me he didn't take plastic.  Only cash or check.


Luckily, turns out he lives just around the corner from me and told me he trusted me to get the money for him the next day.  I was surprised by this, but it also helped restore my faith a little in the world.  I went to the ATM the next day and withdrew the cash and he came back over to pick it up and everything is now square with Dan.  (P.S. if you ever need your windshield replaced here in Mesa let me know and I'll give you Dan's number.  He's great!)

Wednesday-Friday: The systems at work STILL not working 100%.  Every day at 10:30am down they went for an hour and then again around 2pm.


Thursday I also had to go back to the eye doctor for the one week check up on my new contact lenses.  What was scheduled to be a 10 minute visit (seriously, I saw it on the calendar when Zach the technician guy scheduled it.  It said 4:50-5:00pm) turned into an hour.  AN HOUR!


All week: I've been stressing about my talk in church tomorrow.

Needless to say, I am really looking forward to having Monday off...

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

$1145.35

5/1/2012....New fridge: $328.60

5/17/2012....Contacts and eye exam: $130.75

5/21/2012....New pool pump motor: $461.00

5/22/2012....New windshield: $225.00

Make it stop!!!